... t w i l l i g h t d r e a m i n g s ...

2005-09-19T01:44:00.000+08:00

huh this is interesting...that yh would blog on the exact topic we talked about after she left on saturday...i wonder what sparked that off. no matter.

personally, i dont agree. but then again, im in a course with drastically different dynamics, and anyway, whos to say the situation wont change? its only been a sem, after all. nice cheerful thought, that.

back to the point, i guess its one of those sad but true things. its a dog eat dog world, and u gotta be tough to survive.

but ill never forget this --
"And it is still true, no matter how old you are- when you go out in the world, it is best to hold hands and stick together."

i heart all of u guys.

2005-09-14T23:40:00.000+08:00

so, so, tired. i just want to run away and hit somewhere for a week, and just...vegetate?

the idea of escapism is starting to look more and more appealing, come to think of it. so if i go uncontactable for a while...you/ve heard it here first.

technology is definately overrated. being contactable all the time is a pain in the you-know-where.

and no more shopping! thats another pain.

results tomorro.

2005-09-05T10:07:00.000+08:00

oh, for freak's sake.....

is it too much to ask for an mp3 player which functions decently for, say 5 months without hanging/malfunctioning/being otherwise screwed up? shinshin (or should i say, shinshin II -- he's been replaced once already) all locked up again. AGAIN! why??

all this just makes me feel like some sort of dysfunctional mp3 player user...like a lousy pet owner. incompetence sucks. ah well.will just drag it down to creative AGAIN and try to get it to refunction. hopefully. am motivated to go asap, but with my teeth all bound up, its a bit difficult. communication is a tad difficult now...mostly it consists of what feels like an extended game of charades. hahaha.

sep 17th. sizzler? more suggestions?

2005-09-04T16:50:00.000+08:00

so its been a pretty miserable but enlightening few days.

fact #1: singapore hospitals are actually pretty good places to be in. not that a hospital should be your top vacation spot in the first place, but people, be glad for our health system. the facilities are decent, blood tests at some insane hour of the night being a necessary evil, and the staff are on the whole, great.

fact #2: elective surgery is not something you want to do at random. so my lower jaw protrudes, its something i can live with. anyhow, the surgery is done with, so all the what-ifs are irrelevant at the moment of time. that doesnt change the fact that i still do not quite believe in elective nor cosmetic surgery.

to squids: am really looking forward to the 17th of sep! oh yeah, does anyone have suggestions for midpriced western buffets for weekends? i think we'll look in the range of 25-30 bucks...lets be realistic...

2005-08-29T23:36:00.000+08:00

well. its been another exciting 2(?) weeks. so exciting that bloggings getting kinda difficult now, actually.

exams are over. whee! not that im going to enjoy much of that, seeing how im going to get the last part of all this orthodontic nonsense done on wednesday. happiness..not that everythings going to end soon but this is the most major bit of it and i just want it over and done with.

last word, i love my wonderful fren. :)

2005-08-22T23:31:00.000+08:00

那女孩对我说

心很空　天很大　云很重我恨孤独　却赶不走捧着她的名字　她喜怒哀乐往前走　多久了
一个人心中只有一个宝贝久了之后　她变成了眼泪泪一滴在左手　凝固成为寂寞往回看　有什么
那女孩对我说　(说我)保护她的梦说这个世界　对她这样的不多她渐渐忘了我　但是她并不晓得遍体麟伤的我　一天也没再爱过那女孩对我说　说我是一个小偷偷她的回忆　塞进我的脑海中我不需要自由　只想背着她的梦一步步向前走　她给的永远　不重

yep, more chinese songs!
this one from yida's second album. not something which appealed rightaway, but grew on me...it got pretty infectious today. its beyond sweet, even though i have to confess im not entirely sure what it means. :P

2005-08-21T18:43:00.000+08:00

我知道伤心不能改变什么　那么　让我诚实一点诚实　难免有不能控制的宣泄只要关上了门　不必理谁
一个人坐在空荡包厢里面　手机　让它休息一夜难　像切歌切掉回忆的画面　眼泪不能流过十二点
生日快乐　我对自己说　蜡烛点了　寂寞亮了生日快乐　泪也融了　我要谢谢你给的你拿走的一切
还爱你　带一点恨　还要时间　才能平衡热恋伤痕　幻灭重生　祝我生日快乐
一个人坐在空荡包厢里面　手机　让它休息一夜难　像切歌切掉回忆的画面　眼泪不能流过十二点
生日快乐　我对自己说　蜡烛点了　寂寞亮了生日快乐　泪也融了　我要谢谢你给的你拿走的一切
还爱你　带一点恨　还要时间　才能平衡热恋伤痕　幻灭重生　祝我生日快乐还爱你　带一点恨　还要时间　才能平衡热恋伤痕　幻灭重生　祝我生日快乐

[this is landy's zhu wo shen ri quai le, or wishing myself a happy birthday. if u cant see the lyrics, wells, just imagine a slow, sad, sad, song.]

*stares out of window* exams suck.

2005-08-20T02:52:00.000+08:00

so its 2-bloody-53am in the morning and im digging thru good ole physio for monday's test, coming to realise several important points.

1) life seems pretty bleak and depressing at 3 in the morning -- definately not a good time to contemplate matters philosophical, spirital, and any other -als.

2) physio is -so- a pain in the ass. but dont worry, it can never beat anat. ahahaha.

3) i *heart* yh. :)

2005-08-17T01:17:00.000+08:00

crazy seasons of sheer verbal madness, puncuated with lounging around and timewasting.

poring over books, accompanied by my faithful notecards and delighted with pika...u seriously arent sane, girl. :)

hanging out with dear(s).

reading.

studying.

reading AND studying.

working.

i love my life.

and meeting the squid! how could i forget. *big hugs*

2005-08-12T13:15:00.000+08:00

never ceasing chaos.

end of page.

2005-08-11T00:49:00.000+08:00

exams in 1 1/2 weeks time.
work tomorro (that being thursday).
dental on friday.
v101 meeting next week.

and all i can obsess about now is csi.

specifically, csi: miami.

specifically, horatio crane.

damn, but he's hot. there's a touch of little-boy-lost in him; it makes me want to run up and snuggle him, nice and tight.

if ure wondering how the hell he looks like (for the mountain turtles out there! and yes, i mean YOU. haha) here's a pic of him!!

(he's the guy in the centre with the bright hair)

damn i so want to kidnap him and tie him up and--

*tries to stop train of thought*

but before you go away with the thought that i am a superficial despo bimbo, i would like to offer 5 2 real and 1 fake reason for Why Horatio Crane Is So Damn Hot.

1. he lost one of his team in the pilot episode of season 3. talk about ow, man.

2. we see a really compassionate side of him at the end of the 2nd episode of season 3. also for some reason he strikes me as the most tenderhearted of the 3 csi team leader. sweet hey?

3.he's hot! hot! hot! hot! hot!

heh. back to work for me.

on a more serious note, i think im turning into a horrible person. :(

2005-08-09T00:12:00.000+08:00

tribute;;

[its amazing how u can speak right to my heart]

bright soul; laughing with joy, chill with sorrow, you bring joy to my life.

[without saying the words, you can light up the dark]

sweetheart, 5 years and counting. forever to the end.

[try as i may, i cant never explain]

dearies much loved, seldom seen now, but still in my heart.

[what i hear when you dont say a thing]

happy national day, guys. kissies to all.

2005-08-05T23:22:00.000+08:00

b for anat pract!

okay, so everyone else got an A, but still pretty happy (if nothing else, that i didnt fail).

ottp up next, then its major endofsems.

and that, ladies and gentlemen, sums up year1, sem1.

am still trying to catch my breath from actually starting school, dammit. okay, maybe not starting, but it sure as hell is ending fast. damn.

feeling...out of control. careening from activity to activity. collision? it happened already.

2005-08-03T10:28:00.000+08:00

yh, take heart. exams are more than around the corner here too. 20 days to end-of-sems.

sigh.

anyway i have a more than fantastic social support network of friends *hands out sunflowers to u fantastic people* and work. then again these days im not sure whether to laugh or cry when it comes to work; half the time its one or the other. but anyway, life is good.

for a micro view:

anat test was beyond screwed. 40% for theory paper, i need it, so. so. bad.

damn it u guys, i want to see f.i.r. too! how do u impersonate a uni student? or should i just seduce some engine guy (jash i need help with this) and steal his ticket? dont laugh, im serious. about needing a break from thinking abt schwk 24/7, anyway. :)

bck to schoolwork. ARGH.

2005-07-27T23:35:00.000+08:00

have you ever gotten the feeling that something wasnt quite right?

on the surface, your life seems just the way it was, before. yet, something lurks beneath. almost. impossible to describe, fleeing when sensed. paranoia, or?

2005-07-26T09:25:00.000+08:00

people who have been inflicted with my presence the past few days would probably be quite familiar with this jap song i insist on playing to anyone around me. squidees, if you want a listen drop me a note. yes, i promise its not a loud metal song. :) in fact its a sweetish melody...kinda like a little kitten: hopelessly adorable.

anyways! found the lyrics and traslations to it. almost started crying. its that good. read it!

--legal mumbo-jumbo: original translation stolen from this site. being more concerned with the message of the song as it spoke to me, rather than the accuracy of the translation, i modified and rephrased. --

inspired by white road by glay.

kissing on this holy night, beyond the sounds of winter
I could hear the song of the wind

I was startled by the news from home
a sad wasteland outside this frosted window
How was this year for you?

I'm at the age where I am lost for words
when someone just comes out and asks me
that we bid goodbye here, and then
made a promise.
in time, both our parting and the promise
tore my heart, and yet
bloomed within, as the seasons changed

this romance that's surmounted the pain of being unrequited
is not the first, and probably not the best
but when it becomes love, I think we'll be able to call it our final love.

on sleepless nights, my mind cannot let go of
the 'see you later' from when we parted
I'm can't tell you how many times I've been saved
this ordinary love with its smiles, and caresses
unconsiously, again and again
I talk about my dreams
but perhaps its time? they shrivel up
when you say in that manner of yours
"when you tire of your dreams, come on home"
my tears fall at your awkward attempts at kindness

looking back, my hometown wasn't a place
it was you, only you.
lonely child in my arms, down the dark night road
now on, I'll walk with someone I love
living with singular purpose, this long white road

days long gone, only memories now,
I'll quietly take them out on nights I'm alone
on the road to finding that special someone,
I count the footprints of those that went away.
our romance that has surmounted the pain of being unrequited
it may not be the first, nor the greatest
but when at last it becomes love, I think we'll be able to call it the last
I swear it.
In my heart, there stands the white road.

one of the more true descriptions of love ive found, anyway.

exams are on the brink of a corner...leaving me stuck in school even tho ive no scheduled classes. uuurgh. hate school hate school hate school!

*needs a change of scene*

i dont care, im going somewhere this saturday. need to get away from reality for a while. not that i dont love my life (yes, even with school. lols.)...its probably just sudden stir craziness.

glad u guys had a great time with school (esp yh. so is the guy any good??? betta bring him along to our next gathering...we'll rate him for you! *grins*) deb, camp sounded...sucks. facilities wise, anyway. ouch. but hey, isnt mother nature a great and wonderful place? *ducks before deb can kill her* and i think you guys are probably sick of this topic already (esp since i keep postponing you all off) , but im thinking would near end aug be a gd time? im not sure abt the ntu-ers tho...what you all think?

2005-07-19T00:50:00.000+08:00

[much rambling ahead. u r warned.]

6 years in pri school. 4 years in sec school. 2 years in jc/3 years in poly.
time down the road/memories woven.
are they not enough for us to reach across empty spaces, to reconnect?
u be the judge.

that came from a convo with a sec school fren, after she saw me in school today. saddening to lose people along the way. and when you try to keep with them and they just couldnt be bothered.

these few days has seen a flurry of activity, unis opening their great wide doors to all freshies of 05 soon.

in a way, its a bit depressing. watching various darlings caught up in the swirl of camps, new classes, new schools, etc. im not involved, and i never will be, not even after my 3 years. am i feeling jealous, no. left out, a tiny bit.

its really more of a awfully sober reminder that life paths have diverged. what the future might bring has become an alien idea.

2005-07-18T08:47:00.000+08:00

have gained new appreciation for the phrase "sodden with fatigue".

just woke up but feel like crawling back into bed.

i need sleep. lots of sleep. got class at 10 tho tho, so fat hope. unless i go there to sleep.....nah. felling asleep in anat will probably just result in the lecturer hurling a marker at me or sth.she's a lady dragon i tell u.

2005-07-17T02:28:00.000+08:00

[nick changed to protect privacy]

da babe says:
i feel like such a failure
da babe says:
yuli lets go speed dating
da babe says:
hahahaha
da babe says:
ill go chinese herb store and buy us some dates

well since she wants one........

ANYONE LOOKING FOR A GF?

she's sweet, pretty (everyone thinks she has mixed blood...haha), and most importantly, CAN COOK! she makes killer sandwiches, salads, and soups!

interested let me know...ill hook u up to her. whahaah.

2005-07-13T00:19:00.000+08:00

pawing thru my bro's songs now...a bit too much english songs for my taste, but its loads of fun. perks of sharing similar tastes. have so got to intro him to some jrock tho. DeG! bwahahaha. some cpop wouldnt hurt too actually.

its the only bright spot now anyway. working on project in the middle of the night is such a pain. and thinking of my practical report for physio...bleh.

fed up with life now, really.

2005-07-12T00:28:00.000+08:00

thankews all for nice (and not so nice. hp im WARNING you! will whack u up the next time. so there.) comments.

now im no longer nauseous. im ravenous. i cant stop eating!

2005-07-09T12:36:00.000+08:00

anyone knows if feeling nauseous all the time is a symptom of anything? eating is a real pain these days, especially when your stomach seems all too ready to eject it all back out. :(

2005-07-08T23:51:00.000+08:00

i found the theme song of my life!

I need some sleep
You can't go home like this
I try counting sheep
But there's one I always miss
Everyone says I'm getting down too low
Everyone says, 'You just gotta let it go'
You just gotta let it go
You just gotta let it go

I need some sleep
Time to put the old horse down
I'm in too deep
and the wheels keep spinning round
Everyone says I'm getting down too low
Everyone says, 'You just gotta let it go'
You just gotta let it go
You just gotta let it go

off i go, the bed calls.

2005-07-06T00:52:00.000+08:00

back!

after a week of much frustration, blood, tears, schoolwork, and sandwiches, i think im gaining control over my life . that is to say, im not falling asleep everytime im stationary. apparently i looked like i was homeless. heh.

anyways.

i really dont know what to say...cuz i dont even know whats going on. am i just being too sensitive as you guys go about your own lives, or is there something im not getting here? im sorry for what happened abt sat, i really am, but somehow......everything just seems so confused now. anyways ive cleared next sat already...i juz hav to leave by 5pm, so we have early afternoon. is that enough? i dont know. all i can say is, im trying my best now.

school, the usual hectic mesh of class66insanity, and plain studyinginsanity. and not to mention, the year2&3s are back.

gah.

okay so maybe im spoilt, but i never did imagine that ourfaculty had so many people. it really felt like a third world country with all the overcrowding. bleh.

oh, and i was coasting around ot blogs. i found a really good quote.

NYP = Not Your Problem.

*grins*

oh and another! this one is courtesy of class66 and a physiology cd.

"now let me/show yoooou/ the SHAPE OF MY HEART!!!!"
*brandishes fist*

ah well. its probably one of those jokes where u gotta b there to really get it. heh.

work...ah, work. i am so, so, seriously going to miss my trainingbranch. they r da bestz! not to mention, the craziest.

krazycollegue: eh, hurry up! u wan jam ur orders le!
me: ni gou le hor! *waves sharp metal container dividers at him*
k: ni gan... *pulls out 1 steak knife*
m: eh, u got ONE knife. i got a BUNDLE of metal things lor!
k: u see these things??? *points at legs*
m: *stunned* huh??
k: stupid, i run away la!

-_-

but then again, ill hav some really nice ppl from trainingbranch going over too (as well as some not so nice ones. sigh.) and of course, who can forget! da babe's going too!!!! am really quite looking forward to newbranch, but yet..trainingbranch is becoming really close to my heart. heez.

2005-07-02T06:33:00.000+08:00

disclaimer:

to people much loved, but r being sadly neglected.

it is my bad, that im crazily busy these days...so i mean it, outings r something i cant afford to go for now. i dun think this should stop u guys tho...so really, juz go...ill plan if u wan, but u all go ahead.

2005-06-27T02:03:00.000+08:00

would u believe im really getting into the madagascar thing now? am so addicted to the songs...

i like to move it move it, you like to move it move it, we like to, MOVE IT!

bwahaha.

did u all know ali g (this brit entertaininer who is super funny, if a bit weird) is king julien? aka, the king of the lemurs? lolol! well it explains I LIKE TO MOVE IT MOVE IT, YOU LIKE TO MO- you guys get the idea.

work was fun, if ~~a bit~~ very stressed. made my poor trainer stay back cuz i couldnt finish in time. urrrk. and ive learnt something very important. pancakes are death to a traineee sandwich maker's schedule! i was ambling along fine until whack! pancakes. immedicately, no space for sandwiches, which of course by holy (as if) murphy's law would be the only thing people want to eat RIGHT NOW. bah.

anyway, 1 more week of sandwich! look at my fake happy smile. :S

2005-06-26T00:09:00.000+08:00

most fun bit of my day: singing with my brother late into the night. he's listening to his mp3player, and i know most of his songs by heart (ive mentioned we share similar tastes).

so amusing. :)

2005-06-24T22:10:00.000+08:00

sometimes i feel like im going mad.
i have a ton of undone work, projects are going after me, and work is giving me anxiety attacks. it probably wouldnt be so bad if i just went to work today...then i get to get down to it while the knowledge is still fresh. going down 2 days later, AFTER piano, knowing im going solo...............

its really not easy, is it? now i know what uve been going through these past few weeks. longing to give you a call now, if only to hear your voice. but i know i cant, ure still there, hard at it. you can do it! ganbatte!

anyways.

went out with noel today...watched madagascar. lol, lol, LOL.

people say life should be a continuous learning process, and so here's a list of Things Ive Learnt Today Going To The Movies With Noel:

1. we still bicker a lot. good grief. then again, its kind of a confort that somethings still havnt changed. *smile*

2. noel is very particular about colours!!!!! this is one memory which still makes me smile. we were choosing tickets, and the cashier told us to look at the "green or red seats". now their green wasnt exactly green, more of a turquoise, which immediately bugged noel, who went," got green meh?". so i pointed to the turqouise seats. and our darling noel goes, "that is green meh?". now im smiling already, and the cashier, probably internally questioning why is it her bad luck to get to serve us, quickly says, "i mean the turquoise." now by now we've spent about 5 minutes debating turquoise,and the cashier is turning purple. after a heated, but quick, debate, we get our seats. at last. couldnt stop bugging noel abt turquoise as we walked into the theater tho. aheh.

3.(turn and turn abt, now the doofus is me. noel, hope ure not offended...meaning no illwill, yeah? :P) so we walk to our theater, and i see quite a few people near our enterance, which says seats 1-9. now knowing that our seats are in the 10-18 category, i walk to the LEFT of the original door i see, and enter there. now we go in and its dark, but thats expected, cuz the ads should have started by now. then i see ppl in our seats, so i politely point out those are our seats. now im getting very weird looks from them, which is a bit odd, cuz ppl who seat in wrong seats usually know it, and are happy to move out when u point it out to them. then noel grabs me and says the magic words.
"this is the wrong theater!"
i look up and see what looks like....brad pitt? and isnt brad pitt in mr and mrs smi...
oh.
so i hurridly apologise to the innocents i dragged out of their seats and scurry out.
as we walk out i notice that our door, the 10 to 18 one, is on the RIGHT. aha.
then as we get into our seats, noel leans over, " have you been to the movies alone?"
"no i havnt."
" well good. dont go alone."
*embarrassed grin*
and so that concludes today!

2005-06-24T01:59:00.000+08:00

ive got a confession to make.

u guys would probably have noticed that there's been...stuff happening in my life which doesnt seem to make much sense. hell, sometimes i think my whole life doesnt make sense. but i digress. anyway i didnt tell u all beforehand cuz i wanted to let someone else know first (teehee), and now ive done that its time to say.......

i have a new job.

so anticlimatic rite. :P

its down at ps...which is why i was there the other day...so deb, i wasnt going out without u guys! :) would i ever do that??? okay, so i will. but u guys hav priority too! heez. anyways, its sorta a career change for me...f&b is very different from sales. one things still in common tho, people still treat u like shit. this is very sad but true. i mean, okay so u are a customer, and i am obliged to give u good service. but treating us as tho we're not there or we're invisible is a bit ridiculous. working the floor is still fun tho, thats not a worry for me. Places can be a bit heavy tho, but hey, good opportunity to train my arms hey? however, im no longer on floor. im on to sandwiches now.

*shudders*

now lets get this right first; i love the work, and i most definately love the trainer (drive me up the wall tho she may), bu i do. not. love. the stress. while understanding that waiting 20 minutes for your salad (yes, i do them too) is fairly unreasonable, i am doing my best. honest. okay, i know who to blame le. the training programme.

:D

but then again they have no choice...i have got to know the stuff, or im gonna die, die, die when i go to my branch (im in ps for training). and seeing that my branch is opening soon, my training programme's been accelerated. ugh.

feeling happy yet queasy over the whole thing...being yelled at is no fun, but the job is really great in its own way. cant help but focus on the fact that im going solo on sun. uraagh.

im soloing on my 3rd day with sandwiches.

and after 1more wk with the sandwiches, im going on to the bar.

OMG!

2005-06-22T02:42:00.000+08:00

yepz, that (rather bitter) post of mine is off public space...its served its purpose. feeling much most stable now. much thanks to my dear auntie. :)

anyways. wow, very happening day. this should be in the papers by tomorro (hell, its probably on godknows how many ppl's blogs le), but there was a fire at ps! more dramatically, the fire was IN ps!!!!

*waits for the shocked gasps*

wahaha. oh yeah. and if that didnt make life exciting enuff (they had to evacuate ppl), there was a fight outside starbucks!

i told u exciting, rite. :P

the fire...didnt see anything, dont really know what happened. funny burnt smell in the air was the only warning we got. what really amazed me was the sheer number of people just loitering outside ps! i mean, hello? do u not have anything better to do?!

i hold no patience for gawkers.

the fight...even worse. *groans* okay, so this one quite a lot of action...shouting, kicking, hysterical girl crying, chair turning over...u get the idea. but seriously! everyone was watching! like drama liddat! *rolls eyes*

yepz. so thats exciting outside. then i come home and find that (minuature) WWIII seems to have taken place. woah. *dispenses hugs to all*

anyway! conclusion: exciting lives are too damn exhausting. its actually good to be boring. u have more energy that way. :)

2005-06-18T03:21:00.000+08:00

boss: *dont take that! very heavy!"
me:*grins* i try...
*takes box of stuff*
*stuff goes everywhere*
boss:*amazingly complex look of frustration, annoyance and resignation*
me:*turns purple*

and just when work was going so well. sigh.

and question for all.
would u like it if ur gdfren sprung a really unexpected surprise on ya? its sth which she has known for a long time, but has waited to tell u to make it more of a surprise? like a joke which has taken a long time of prep liddat.

eg: ure going overseas to study, then a few wks later she finds out that she's going to the same uni as u. but to make it a surprise, she only tells u on the day u leave (maybe she somehow gets tix on ur flight, if its possible). so e thing here is, would u b very happysurprised, or would u b pissed, like why didnt u tell me earlier?

pas ans on commentboard kay? *snugs*

2005-06-17T02:06:00.000+08:00

whee DeG (thats dir en grey for the uninitiated) had their first tour in berlin!! thats their first outside japan!!!!

*so happys for them*

and let me show u a pic of my shinshin's namesake!

*drools*

he is so beyond cute.

anyways. work was mundane, so was school. driving tomorro, so ciao guys!

2005-06-15T22:48:00.000+08:00

now that shinshin is still sick i kopped my bro's player for mobile music. what a surprise man. having caught snatches here and there i had the vague idea that he liked rock too. but now, having a good listen....we have similar taste man! okay, so he does have a leaning for r&b (shudders) and lindsay lohan (my GOD), but no ones perfect, ne. :)

10 songs in my bro's mp3:
1. Fountain of Wayne - Stacy's Mom
2. Good Charlotte - I Just Wanna Live
3. Eminem - My Name is
4. Kelly Clarkson - Breakaway
5. Candy Shop (couldnt care who sing this)
6. 5 for Fighting - 100 years
7. Linkin Park - Numb
8. Eminem - Stan
9. Eminem - Mockingbird
10. Eminem - Rain Man

challenge for all! find 10 songs wrong ur sib's player (and kind of player). we can compare notes! :)

2005-06-15T19:51:00.000+08:00

oy mama. when photobucket goes down, this blog disappears. major disadvantage of the skin for sure.

school was great. bonnet making is so fun! quite looking forward to the 18th...dressing up as little geese may seem rather odd, but hey, all good fun, ne

feeling rather anxious/stressed now...i love working, but all of the sudden everything feels like its closing in on me, and there's nowhere i can hide.

its a really odd form of stress tho.

and deb, i went looking for such blogs too but i couldnt find them...teach me the secret of ur success leh. teehee.

oh yes! went down to shinshin's former home today. something i found quite disturbing would have to be that there are just so many people at the Customer Care Centre. the crowd was such that there r chairs in the corridors, for crying out loud. says something abt the products, huh. was informed that my problem could b solved by uploading of new software, but since that would mean erasing all my songs, which are not backed up, i elected to get it done some other time. service wise...the guy who served my was pretty nice, and im betting he's a temp, cuz he looks pretty young. it was a bit unconfortable tho, cuz he seemed so accomodating. and he smiled way too much. im all for good service, but i felt as tho he was trying too hard. its like, i just wanted some nice straightforward answers, but he waffled a lot. got a bit frustrating, but he was giving his all, so its all good. :)

study study STUDY!

2005-06-15T00:54:00.000+08:00

exciting day today.

did project today. feeling...weird. cuz halfway thru, ended up sorta(?) arguing with my grp member about a point...leaving the rest of the group mentally disconnected to the squabble. am really....embarressed, i guess. not the least since the whole thing reminds me of pw (not so) long ago. yh will know what i mean.
must strive not to let self get caught up in essentially unimportant details. waste of time only.

went swimming too! my sch's pool is nice. *snugs*

and finally, highlight of the day....meeting with ashley! by then was pretty zombified tho, so so much for meaningful interaction. loved looking at clothes tho. lols.

ah yes. shinshin is sick. *sobs* now he looks like this:

aheh.

seriously, i am now unable to turn the volume down on him...why? im not sure either. bah. gonna get it fixed tomorro tho, so hope he'll b betta soon!

next, travel news!
The Babe is outa this country for the nex few days..bon voyage! kiss the kangaroos for me! :)

coincidentally enough, my mom is leaving too...will miss her too. came down with a sudden bout of insecurititis. :(

nothing more to put, off to bed.

2005-06-12T23:13:00.000+08:00

i am turning into a shopaholic. shopping is good! :)

lots of studying to do tho. uuurgh.

school was as normal today...everyone getting more tense tho, exams being 'round the corner. REALLY round the corner, seeing that its only a month, give or take, for most of them. and well. its hard not to get stressed. *sigh* well, que sera, sera.

met the lady squids today. (whee!) food was good, talking was better, and we have contributed much significantly to the japanese neoprint machines. again. ahhaha.

thats all for today, off to studeeee. feel the excitement, man. :P

2005-06-11T14:20:00.000+08:00

have not blogged in ages! no, 2 terse lines done in school so does not count. i cant even view tagboards in school!! why?? cuz its a FORBIDDEN SITE ACCESS DENIED!!!!!!! that was quoted directly from the page display. i kid u not.

anyways, i lie. yes, exams are coming up. yes, i need to study (physio is bloody difficult. would kill for bio background now). but no, i still can go out. that is, if you guys still want to go out with me. *guilty grin* have been really bad at communication these days...many apologies. esp to yh. heh.

anything else...oh yeah. week in summary:
hot.hot.HOT. and rain is not a relief. its humid, mad weather.
need more ~~skinbaring~~ cooling clothes. aim: nothing with sleeves and nothing below my knees.

2005-06-09T12:03:00.000+08:00

feels like an age since ive posted.

am going to curtail (as much as i can) outing out for now...i desprately, desprately need to study.

2005-06-02T21:54:00.000+08:00

talked to ashley today...scholarship holder, eeey? *smile* just think its really so coincidental...how can something like that happen?! then again, knowing the two of us, not v suprising i guess. heh. still owe u a letta tho...will get it across soon! :)

one more day to end of week!!!

dont see why i bother tho. its not like i stop being busy then. or any other time for that matter.

sometime i hate the busy rythmn of life. it makes it just so damned hard to think.

2005-06-01T23:27:00.000+08:00

so today was bugbug's bday....happy happy bdae wishes to ya! *glompglomp*. ate at cartel (portions work out nicely when u order n-1 dishes where n = no. of ppl u hav) and at monster ice, a yummyummy place for fruits with ice and ice cream. good food, even better company, lots of joking, laughing, singing, photo-taking and general craziness.

*sillygrin*

oh! not forgetting!

我爱你爱着你就像老鼠爱大米不管有多少风雨我都会依然陪着你.

WAHAHAHA. (eheh private joke. any ppl who hav this song, drop me a note! craving. heez.)

other news, school still inching along. bah. and ppl with appointments with me, can tag/comment me with date and place? have a scary feeling there is a clash somewhere...

2005-05-31T23:34:00.000+08:00

verbal{snapshots}

seeing the yv04-ers today. realised how much i missed that heady one month. and realised how quickly i got over it, already. the emotion seems....somehow fake, plastic. *sads* anyway, the launch is in 1 months time (25th june youth park look out for it!)

feeling ~~stressed~~ ~~frustrated~~ just used up, i guess. nothing seems to cheer me up anymore. wooden is the word im looking for, i guess. i go through the motions, but im simply hollow inside.

oh yes and take your pick girls...orchard, cityhall/bugis, tampines mall, toapayoh. let me know, kay? :)

2005-05-31T02:05:00.000+08:00

[letter to a loved one]

ashley, dear, take heart. its not the end of the world...its not so much what course you get at it is who you are. even a computer programmer and give his life wholeheartedly to serving the poor, while the qualified md can only think about his next fat paycheck. my point? learning skills is all well and good, but in the end, its the heart which makes the difference. and i know you have heart enough that no matter what u end up doing in the end, you will make a difference.

i have faith in you.

:)

2005-05-31T01:11:00.000+08:00

i have an mp3 player!

its impossibly slim, almost scarily so. and its black. (yes, psudo-goth, i am. bite me.)

am enjoying fluffy cpop on it, to be specific, its twins. much thanks to yue for like a ton of their stuff, which you so enthusestically recommended, and which im only really appreciating now, after like, donkey years. teeheez.

picpic coming!

pretty, aint he? yep, HE. and he has a name too! say hi to shinshin guys!

:D

we're besties already...we click so well. wahaha.

[yes my dear yh, i have noticed that it looks remarkably like someone else's baby. i would just like to say i didnt pick it out. hee. i did choose the colour tho. black is mucho cool. i need help using it tho...no patience to read the manual. hee.]

2005-05-21T10:19:00.000+08:00

am miserable.

feeling horribly sub-human these days. having no energy and/or drive gets to you. the funny thing would be, its not a sleep problem. im averaging 5-6 hours, which is pretty decent. i think its more a mental thing...thinking is hard (no, seriously...as melodramatic as this sounds)

am trying to schedule some downtime, but with my schedule packed till way into next week, i see no light at the end of the tunnel. :(

anyways.

the tea at the Super Magnificient Uni was fun. lots of fun. its so fun, ive decided.

i want to live in that campus.

ITS SO FREAKING PRETTY!

u guys gotta check out the place sometime...as study grounds, it rocks my socks. :) okay, just typing that made me feel guilty, so i gotta add, my school isnt half bad, either. (we've got to die for gardens. haha.) and it has little staircases to nowhere...The Babe and i went climbing up this old staircase...the spiral kind and ended up talking to some very perplexed staff of the business school. its not often they get prospective students appearing in their pantry, you know. lols.

yes, i know you guys are yelling at me already. but i have made up my mind.

im not going.

for all those who think it isnt even a choice to begin with, it is. and if you cant see why, its okay. we just have different belief systems. just like i cant see why people cannot make up their mind between different unis (when to me all the unis have their own different appeal...its like deciding between an apple and an orange; the two are too drastically different).

then again im still wavering.

ARGH.

okay, enough. oh, and people, details for tomorro on our site. access and contribute, heys? :D

2005-05-18T00:03:00.000+08:00

today's lesson by ur friendly neighbourhood teacher shiri is....

there is such a thing called freedom of speech.

if you can shoot your mouth of about other people, dont be surprised when they do it back to you.

thats all i feel like saying today. and oh, have the urge to bite someone. or something. hard.

-yes my dear girl this post is for you. *smiles* am totally for you. that jerk. -

2005-05-13T23:54:00.000+08:00

my life is going mad.

i repeat, mad.

in the next week, i am looking forward (not) to.....
1) school (duh)
2) tuition
3) piano
4) my job in sales(the same place as the past few months)
5)"tea with the faculty" (quoted from the phone lady from the uni) at the only uni im still considering now.
6) driving

im all for an exciting life, but i think this is a bit out of hand. anyways, will attempt to blog everyday for the next week, if only to whinge about my life. haha. in any ways, The Babe promises to read (tho she thinks i should film the whole of my nex week. lol.), so....look out for (very whiny) updates!

haha.

anyways. let me tell you about the wonderful Class Greeting from a Lift. Just picture this. ure a normal student at my school, waiting for the lift to come down to your floor. the bell chimes, the door creaks open, the lift is full of people, who all give you a resounding, hearty,
"HIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII!!!!!!"
and the door creaks shut again.

i tell you, those people had the most amusing expressions on their faces. poor things, actually...they were juz victims of the energetic craziness my class seems to generate. lol. yanyways, it makes for exciting lessons. *smiles*

thats it for today, am gonna prep for tomorro, which would be
1) school (seniors presenting their projects)
2) work down in town (so guys in the area, esp people who like to shop in the area, do stop by! hee)

funness man. lol.

2005-05-11T01:13:00.000+08:00

-long serious thoughts about further education-

(and yes i -am- capable of long serious thoughts. so there)

1. my month of thinking is nearing its midpoint, so times running short. decision time!

2. also good to make decision soon. then can free up places for others. be socially responsible, yes? *grins at deb*

3. would like very. very. much to study with people i know and love already...but where i am now, im enjoying the people too...kookiness and fun abound. :)

4. (and here comes the sightly more serious bit) im doing a course that challenges and excites me (tho a certain lecturer does produce insomania cures), and which will lead to a uni experience which i prefer, in terms of length and location. this course will also bring me to a career which seems to be what i was looking for in a job.

5. but yet at the same time........ its hard, giving up the course AND the uni, both dreams come true. when we go down to town area...it just drives me mad, esp if the uni comes up in converations. its a fact tho, im not quite ready to let go of my dream of studying there.

6. am so screwed.

7. have school at bloody 8am.

8. should go sleep.

9. still have no idea what to do.

10*bah*

2005-05-06T23:41:00.000+08:00

lots of stuff going on these days, hey?

for one thing, many people are going over to password-protected sites. looking to be a trend, so my crystal ball's thinking that blogger might go that way soon. im not sure if anyone has actually been sued on basis of a blog post, but its bound to happen soon. and probably in america, where sueing seems to be a way of life for some. over here, laywers cost bloody much, cannot anyhow sue. which is probably why blog-slandering has not quite been taken to court yet. anyways, no matter what, this site's gonna remain open and password-free. anyone, and everyone is welcome. juz rem my "no-names" policy.

okay, legal argy-bargy out of the way. the class bbq today was much fun!! gods i love my class. unity takes on a new meaning today. yes, people do tend to stick to some others, but everyone still talks, still feeds each other (absolut hillariousness). its a good feeling. :) and EC park is simply lovely. lots of scenic views of planes. :)

and toasted marshmellows + bbqed nutella(dont ask) = heaven.

okay! girls day out tomorro, see u guys then! :)

2005-05-04T23:34:00.000+08:00

yh disappeared. :( where is ur blogpage? *saddened*

btw, lotsa cases of problems due to blogs cropping up...not juz the one we noe personally...all the others. so in light of all that, i would like to enforce a "no-name" policy in this lil land of mine. simple. dont mention names. all names. ur name, my name, ur sch's name, my company's name, u get the idea. use initials, or better yet, initial. my sch will be N sch, hp's company is M...and so on. those who need to know, know. if not, details only get in the way of the tale, says i.

so. u guys r warned. :)

and speaking of warnings, yh if u change me into a rubbish bin, let it be known that i will personally suan u abt Harry(!!!) into infinity. so there.

:D

2005-05-03T21:15:00.000+08:00

wah so fun!

Your Birthdate: September 9

Your birth on the 9th day of the month adds a tone of idealism and humanitarianism to your nature.

You become one who can work easily with people because you are broadminded, tolerant and generous.

You are ever sensitive to others' needs and feelings, and you are very sympathetic and compassionate.

Your feeling run deep and you often find yourself in dramatically charged situations.

This 9 energy always tends to give more that it gets.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

and another!

Your Japanese Name Is...

Kagami Inoue

What's your Japanese Name?

yes, u can call me kagami. response is not guranteed tho. lol.

and remember my "seduce-guys-with-a-book method"?
apaprently thats not my natural style. (duh.)
so.....

Your Seduction Style: The Natural

You don't really try to seduce people... it just seems to happen.
Fun loving and free spirited, you bring out the inner child in people.
You are spontaneous, sincere, and unpretentious - a hard combo to find!
People drop their guard around you, and find themselves falling fast.

What Is Your Seduction Style?

MUST go study. *scurries off*

ps: much SORRIES to hp for psing her today...

2005-05-03T20:08:00.000+08:00

hmmms.

was juz thinking abt privacy laws. and blogs. especially blogs.

its our private space on the net, no? but yet its invietable, ne. people we dont want will drop by our blogs WILL drop by our blogs.

its not a perfect world.

2005-05-02T22:35:00.000+08:00

okay guys! dun faint, but here it is!

the much promised (er, only to deb i think), much anticipated (like REAL)..........

squid wonderland!!!!!

go admire the skin. WAHAHAHAHA.

anyways. ill try to invite u guys as members so u can hav a say in how it looks like and all, but meanwhile, juz hav fun with it, hey? :)

2005-05-02T21:53:00.000+08:00

still havnt cut my hair. :(

2005-05-02T10:40:00.000+08:00

think about this.

we're entering in the acdemic year 2005/2006. we take 3 years for our degrees, so graduation is in 2009.

what opens in 2009?

seriously, its a good factor to take into consideration...not so much as to what degree to take, cuz i know u guys already know what u want. but if possible, align urself towards irs...it sounds like quite a lot of good opportunities.

[...inspired by the newspaper article today]

2005-05-01T13:12:00.000+08:00

and got my final acceptance letter today (tho it was in the mailbox by yesterday).

:)

am now having serious problems deciding what to do...where to go. for all who've tendered advice/suggestions, many thanks. hope a decision will be made soon. heh.

anyway yesterday was fun, tho costly. life is very difficult when u cant hold a full time job. either that or someone should confiscate my atm card. but no, yh, u need not apply. lol. but well, its easy to see why its called retail therapy, ne. hee.

the gathering...well its always good to see everyone...brings back good memories of times past. not to mention, all the suaning. okay maybe the suaning is not that great, since most of it seemed to involve me, my hair (perenial favourite), my clothes (another one)...you get the picture. am glad jonny is coming for the next one...i need a break. lol. yh's turn! haha.

gonna cut hair today. whee!

2005-04-30T01:15:00.000+08:00

if u use the newer versions of windows (which im sure most of u guys do), theres that folder called my received files in our my docs folder. so having absolutely no more space in my c drive, im clearing out aforsaid folder. interestingly enough, im finding a lot of awfully weird things, and i honestly dont know who would have sent me files like that. tell me if any of these sounds like your files, kay?

list of stuff in folder:
1. LOT of pics of girls. i cant decided if im amused or disgusted. before you ask tho, i am not les. but somehow i have LOADS of these. some in sexy underwear too! X_x hell, i guess i should be happy they still HAVE underwear, hey.

2. pics of nature. specifically, a branch, a flower and a lizard. ehhh.

actually thats about it. and a bunch of mp3s, and pics of people i recognise. but no, deleting all these did not give me the space i needed. time for a talk with the other users of this comp.

anyways, tomorro's meeting, big thanks to yh and hp. :)

2005-04-28T23:33:00.000+08:00

[the very long reply to all the taggies disguised as a blog entry]

first things first, i think ull notice i dont use school names on my blog. its a (pretty futile) way of staying anon, i admit, but i think its for the best. its fine with me if u guys use names tho, but im juz letting u know that i wont. so hp, i would say i got letters from the 2 newer unis. and the teacher one (which i seriously doubt i will get. cuz i thot it went okay. weird theory of mine. dont ask.) for specific details juz drop me a msg. course wise, ive gotten sociology and soc sci(which i much love, and its the one which is causing me sleepless nights,actually.)

deb, request grated (or will try to grant) but i gotta say, im having major problems with the organising. ie; im screwing up. :( i need assistance!

to yh: lol muz try to get to talk to ya then! cuz now i can go online in sch! :D but alas, no messenger. haah.

2005-04-28T14:27:00.000+08:00

lol yh u online? cant use the chatterboxes so dunno how to contact ya. sad. :(

am working in the "e-learning plaza", aka a place with lots and lots of comps so we cando whatever we want. no messenger tho. *sad*

ps: still need ideas for saturrrdddaaayyyy...... :( :( :(

2005-04-26T23:11:00.000+08:00

situations are rarely involve adrupt, obvious changes. rather, a more subtle shift occurs, as one moves from one state to another.

am settling pretty smoothly back to the student frame of mind... trudging to school, attending lectures, and attending to the thousand and one little things which mark accademic life. it still feels awfully weird in lectures though, with the lecture hall looking exactly, and i mean exactly, like our LT1 and 2. so the walls different, and the chairs, but the layout is identical...down to the tables, for goodness sakes. it makes lectures pretty surreal, cuz its well, juz so like old times. heh.

anyways, teacher interview tomorrow, pray for me. :)

oh yeah. ideas desperately needed for sat's outing! and buggings and/or threats...i keep procastiating. :(

2005-04-25T08:02:00.000+08:00

gah its a new week already. days pass in a blur when you just let them drift by.

am luxurating in the fact that im home, and at eightish in the morn. not that i get to do so for long tho...gotta get my ass to school by 10, so high time to get moving, really.

am still reluctant to move tho. lol.

2005-04-23T23:41:00.000+08:00

am cultivating a new hobby... im starting my admission letter collection! its actually pretty silly (u know me and my idea of fun)... but so far i've the one for sociology, and now today, not one but TWO new ones!

okay so to be honest the're all from the same school (which apparently does not have a very efficient admin office, hey?), so its not that great, but its good to know i didnt do that badly for that interview. my ego is restored. *grins*

speaking of interviews im slated for another one... Bsc(edun), this wed. am most likely going... interview experience, y'know?

and maybe i can add to my collection!

gods i need a life.

2005-04-23T11:44:00.000+08:00

Pick ONE word from each pair that you think describes me the best and put it in comments. NOT taggie. dont abuse my taggie. :)

dominant or submissive
logical or intuitive
social or loner
kinky or vanilla
cute or sophisticated
kitten or puppy
warm flannel sheets or sleek satin
leader or follower
quiet or talkative
spontaneous or planned
teddy bear or porcelain doll
hiking or window shopping
tequila or vodka
top or bottom
bare foot or shoes
jeans or slacks
tender or rough
aware or dreamy
nerd or jock

feel free to steal...its actually quite fun. :)

-taken from mbear's blog.

2005-04-23T11:03:00.000+08:00

aloha! likee the new look?

thought it would be a nice way to restart my blogging life, to come back with a bang. sorta, anyway.

being busy busy busy again... this time life's revolving around school, yet again. the timetables no joke... we are in school as much as the poor souls taking 4As, so trust me, we suffer too.

then again its not actually suffering, per se. its hard to suffer when there are 20 funky ppl turning class into a comedy cum drama... new episodes everyday. we've got the whole mix...the whacky ones, the quiet ones, and the plain fun.

i confess. im having the time of my life.

something funny.

2005-03-21T02:09:00.000+08:00

u guys probably noticed this, but ever since the beginning of this year, blog entries of mine are infrequent/short/both.

am not too sure why either, but ive become generally wary abt blogging. it has nothing to do with security concerns or such...rather im just lazy, i guess. and not really into blogging anymore. somehow what i say here, its meaningless. why bother?

but since ive started, might as well rant on. :P

and another thing. ~~have become very impatient. and fussy. cuz sometimes things peo~~

now i know why i dont like blogging. i can no longer say the things i want to say.

be useful day!

2005-03-18T10:37:00.000+08:00

yep, today is officially declared yuli's be useful day! have postponed far too many things which i really need to do, so i resolve to clear them up. today! :)

sigh

2005-03-16T01:28:00.000+08:00

i am a lousy friend. even though a lot of you probably wont get to read this, i want to apologise. i dont even know why im acting like this...but somehow i cant seem to stop myself. sigh.

much.frustration?

2005-03-13T23:18:00.000+08:00

let me tell u guys some very important things.

number #1: uni deadlines are 1th apr(nus), 2nd/8th apr(ntu), and 4th apr(smu).

number #2: i intend to submit all my applications by the 20th mar.

number #3: until that point of time, i am not in any mood to discuss possible courses, applications, or anything to do with university. i will not welcome any references to the above.

yes i am being prickly, and i apologise. all this is sending me over the edge...gods know enough people have been at the recieving end of my tongue over my bloody education.

grrr.

last note. why do people u havnt talked to in xxx years suddenly appear all happy and friendly wanting to know your results? 2 words. go. away.

[grouchy and loving it...]

thoughts.

2005-03-01T00:24:00.000+08:00

do you believe in attraction? a state of heightened awareness where you feel magnetically drawn to another...where you cant help noticing what he/she does and says...where you feel a sense of being unbalanced when that person is not present, as though u need a daily dose of him/her to get through the next 24 hours?

and no, i do not believe that is what is commonly known as love.

re: office politics, a cool apartment, and holidays.

2005-02-26T10:00:00.000+08:00

lol thankews to all on the comments on office politics.

deb, good one. advantage of a small office/working force man.

hp, have u ever considered stepping rite into ur collegues faces and demanding in a ah lian manner "why u cannot even SMILE arh??? NOT HAPPY IZZIT????" a method u can employ on ur last day of work...then wont get sacked lor. :D seriously, it could juz b the banking industry...and the fact that a lot of the working force r juz too wrapped up in their problems...and they r suspicious of ppl who r 2 friendly, cuz they think u r out for something. paranoid, yes, but what to do. heh.

anyways quick update here...most of the part timers r leaving (all o level-ers...going to get results...no mood to work anyway), so by monday, i believe it would be a grand total of part timers would be.........me. and me. and me. *sigh* our gang (of collegues. dun get ideas. :P) might b coming down tho...so that would b something to look forward to. hee. meanwhile, am resigned to juz being careful, toeing the line as best i can. in the end, its my customers, senior, and the group of us collegues-turned-friends which keeps me going. and i guess thats as good as it gets.

results.....bah. end of topic. case closed.

watched constantine, it was good, but i dont see how keanu reeves' character is different from neo. he looks so much like neo! (okay even i have to admit that was an extraordinaryily stupid statement, but its true. :P) the feel he gives me is very like neo lor. and one very important thing.

HIS APARTMENT IS DAMN COOL.

i noticed no one else pointed that out. but dun u think so? its stylish in a spartan, minimalist, noir-film look. damn chio sia. the best bit is that its so small, but he manages to make the space work for him...wow.

huh...feel this entry is going back to pre working days length...hehe...oh yeah last thing. would u believe ive been put on enforced holiday? apparently, ive "worked too many hours". essentially, they dont want to pay me so much. ahahahhaa. so now i can come late for work. damn amusing sia.

think thats about it...wait deb u msged me during cny izzit? my bloody service provider lost all my messages then, cuz i went to m'sia, then went i came back i didnt get anything during that period. but if its not that, then should b i misplaced my fone or sth....i dun ignore frens that way. :) so yes, im contactable now... hee.

facts of life

2005-02-22T01:27:00.000+08:00

fact #1: politics is an ugly fact of working life.

am not sure why none of the other squids seem to hav a problem with this (as far as i can tell from ur blogs), but there sure is a lot of such shit going around my workplace. for details, contact me...i cant figure out a way to put it on the free and open internet without being liable for slander. :P it least i noe someone else who has similar problems...babe, between the 2 of us we can write a novel on office politics man. bah.

fact #2: i love my job anyway.

sounds mad, but hey. i got wacky customers (again, contact for details), fun collegues (some of them anyway), and i get to play with shiny things everyday. plus, i get paid! what's there not to like??

fact #3: am a bit deprived of a normal life.

u know why i dont blog so often anymore? simple. all i do everyday is work. what i would blog is nothing you want to read. :)

fact #4: am working around my deprivation tho.

despite a /7(if not 24) working schedule, i get visits from much loved people *hugz*, trips out with my babe *glomps* and nightly supper with collegues. what more could i want?

life is good. :)

whats happening now...........

2005-02-12T22:26:00.000+08:00

is that i have a very. happy. BREAK. tomorro!

this would be my first 24 hours of total freedom in 2005.

and yes, i realised this is a very pathetic thing. oh well, such is life.

anyways. vday coming up, plans (or lack of them) people? i know of someone working on his date...all the best to you my fren! hope you get her! best wishes to ya! :)

to deb, agreed with hp...hope the matter will b resolved soon...dun let it sour what the two of u share.

to yh, get well soon!! cant imagine u without ur voice. :( take care!

and off to cram in 24 hours of fun for tomorro. ahehehe.

re: i am alive.

2005-02-09T21:48:00.000+08:00

i am. really.

to all who tried contacting me, sorry for juz disappearing off the earth. have beeen whisked off by martians and should back within 2 ays or so. meanwhile, life on board the mothership is pretty great, wish you were here. :)

meanwhile, manyhappy wishes ad a wicked new year to all!

some interesting things

2005-01-30T21:10:00.000+08:00

the hazard light in the car is to signal that ur vehicle is a danger to other road users. during my first driving lesson, my instructor left it on throughout the lesson. how nice. :(
the second lesson wasnt so hot either. my instructor made like a log and remained motionless in the passenger seat. even when i was going to crash! hello what am i paying you for? he didnt even tell me any funny jokes! yes, i would pay for someone to tell me jokes...at least im being entertained, instead of burning out from stress. :)

highlights of the week

2005-01-23T22:44:00.000+08:00

after 3-4 days of court shoe torture, i am now on FLATS! believe me u really, really, appreciate a nice horizontal position(for your feet, anyway) if u stand for 8 plus hours on end.
people who complain about customer service, here's something to think about. maybe service may be surly, but sometimes the customer aint so hot either. having seen my share of the ugly customer, all i can say is, its got to be a give and take situation...we cant give you good service if you dont play your part. this includes shouting at us, ignoring us (until they need something. feh.), and calling us stupid(im serious. this really happened.) . sometimes its really hard to believe that the people we r supposed to be serving are on the upper end of singapore society...i wouldnt like to think that our best and brightest are only capable of behaving like netherendal man.
then again, not all our customers are particulary jerklike...we see our share of pretty good ppl too. :) hands off to my wonderful customers! esp the couple who talked to me about future prospects and degrees...that was great! *cheers*
all in all, the job is great...with fun co-workers...maybe the pay is low, but its hard to begrudge that when the job is cool. my boss rocks too! :) she's super sweet...tho a bit blur.

a source of income (finally!)

2005-01-14T08:53:00.000+08:00

money, good. :)

no more free time at home, bad. :(

sales in a store is WAY BETTER than sales on the street. one, u dont beg people. two, the amount u get is way more!

compare:

1 day of sales on street (with a lot of begging and pleading) = $100 of sales
1 day at my counter (with partner) = $1800 of sales

no contest, huh. :P

meanwhile, the job is a lot more complex tho...more things to memorise. and the outfit....blleeagh. on the whole, its quite enjoyable tho.

if only i would get my pay soon. hee.

ob:session

2005-01-10T12:06:00.000+08:00

Holding Out For A Hero - FROU FROU
Where have all the good men gone
And where are all the gods?
Where's the street-wise Hercules
To fight the rising odds?
Isn't there a white knight upon a fiery steed?
Late at night I toss and turn and dream of what I need

[Chorus]
I need a hero
I'm holding out for a hero 'til the end of the night
He's gotta be strong
And he's gotta be fast
And he's gotta be fresh from the fight
I need a hero
I'm holding out for a hero 'til the morning light
He's gotta be sure
And it's gotta be soon
And he's gotta be larger than life
Somewhere after midnight
In my wildest fantasy
Somewhere just beyond my reach
There's someone reaching back for me
Racing on the thunder and rising with the heat
It's gonna take a superman to sweep me off my feet
[Chorus]

Up where the mountains meet the heavens above
Out where the lightning splits the sea
I would swear that there's someone somewhere
Watching me
Through the wind and the chill and the rain
And the storm and the flood
I can feel his approach
Like the fire in my blood

[Chorus]

ive watched it over and over AND over, and i cant get tired of it. all hail the king of homages to fairy tales! :)

crappy poem abt nth.

2005-01-09T19:43:00.000+08:00

a falling star
a moonless night
dark skies
hide lonely hearts.

entertainment on a lonely night

2005-01-06T03:41:00.000+08:00

now thats a faily untrue statement. first of all, its no longer night. 3:42am is the time a certain darling gets up and ready for work, for goodness sakes. *smiles at said darling*

secondly, no wait. that really is true. i am seriously amused.

have discovered vital fact of life today; i SUCK HORRIBLY at sonic.

yes sonic, that old old game, which me-who-lives-in-a-mountaintop-cave just discovered. the basic rules are fine...its the scoring which really is the devil.

for me, anyway.

apparently in this world of wherever-it-is-sonic-lives, the laws of physics are incredible. there's no friction, so no energy lost. result, just twitch ur fingers and ur sonic (or tails. i prefer tails; he's cuter) goes bouncing off in mid air.

i do this. a lot.

as a result, ive been playing for the past hour. havnt made it past stage 1. never thought the day would come when i would wish devoutly for friction, but the lord works in mysterious ways. :)

back to sonic!

;;not all beginnings have a happy ending

2005-01-06T03:36:00.000+08:00

new year (okay, a few days old), new house (soon, anyway), new life (more or less), new blog!

at least the last one is genuinely new. :)

new beginnings r always fun, actually, with the novelty of the unknown and the unexplored. tis how long one can keep passion and drive alive..thats the real test.

and with the (fairly cynical) statement, my blog for the year is officially open!

and yes, people. time to change links. AGAIN.

*grins*